It's gone

"When happines comes, enjoy it.  Don't cry when it's gone" -Paulo Coelho-
It's not an easy thing, for sure, not to cry when all the happiness I used to have is gradually evaporating, just like water that evaporates into thin air by the scorching sun. But crying is indeed not the way out of this situation. I just need to accept that and live with that. I don't even need to understand why things become like this. I am aware that it's just useless for me to push.  Things are already out of my hands now.  Maybe I can only change the way I see them, and do what I can do to make things less painful and damaging. It's heart rending though.  Especially coz I know that faith and trust are diminishing inside me.  But I promise myself that I will beat this hurt or leave for good. 
May God lead my way. I keep telling myself that this all is not about me and any human beings around me.  It's between me and God.  La vie n'est pas toujours roses, Sunshine....