I am Garfield

... Garfield who never looks forward to Monday.  It's me now.  I wasn't before.

Though i never put any days as special day to look forward to or to avoid, I saw each day as new day that could always bring surprises and laughter.  The guys always had their way to make the day bright.  Especially since we got a new member few months ago.  I felt happier.  Not only because finally i had a female partner but also because we had that chemistry between each other.  And starting the day we rearranged the office layout, I felt it completed all the comfort i had in the office. 

Having a new boss from another dept didn't affect much to the team.  The disappointment didn't crack me.  Maybe because I had experienced worse situation there.  Let alone i started to get busy heading the events as well as doing routine work.  The place has become my home.  Promotion...rotation...they didn't matter to me anymore.  

As i got busy with all the loads and enjoyed the hustle and bustle with the whole gang, I started to think of my personal short-term and long-term goal.  I was confirmed that i would go back to school soon and choose applied linguistics.  Though i knew i would never like language, but being in that department was enough to give me motivation to change direction to linguistics instead of continuing to psychology.  Never came to my mind i would leave the department anytime soon.  I made up my mind, if i chose to stay in this institution then it would be in the department, no place else.  I guess being with them was one of the reasons why i could still put up with the situation.  I felt i was surrounded by brothers and sister.

But life is unpredictable...

And here i am now.  In a new place called office.  Bigger (even much bigger) responsibilities, a superior, subordinate, and no co-worker.  I know i would make an early conclusion if i say this new place would not make me feel comfortable, but honestly that's exactly what i feel now.  And Monday starts to be the day i dislike, coz i HAVE to go to the office.  

Just like tonight.  Thinking about tomorrow just makes me want to have longer weekend.  Exactly like Garfield, isn't it?

New Office: cold and quiet

It's been a week since i moved to my new office.  In this institution, getting promoted doesn't always mean getting better facilities... *yaiks.  People say my former office is much more spacious and more comfortable.  Yeah, surely.  They don't even need to say that to make me realize how hard it is to leave my former office.  It's not merely about the physical condition.  It's everything in it, the work, the people the atmosphere...even the restroom...hahahaaaaa.  But life goes on.  I decided to take this assignment.  It's my choice.  I have stopped thinking about who is responsible for dragging me into this new place.  I really don't think it's necessary (anymore).

Since i haven't got my computer yet, i bring my notebook each time i go to office.  I don't really like it actually, due to the ribetness of the transportation (I must change public transportation several times).  But i don't want to end up doing nothing in the office and just having chats with people here and there.

The room is really cold.  Cold enough to make me sick.  I have asked the technician to do something about it.  Until yesterday, no technician came... *sigh.  It seems the only thing that goes fast in this building is gossip.

Today i was supposed to have road show to Bandung with the mommies and BODs.  But yesterday's cold has prevented me from going out of home.  I really wasn't feeling well.

Seems that i don't have good comments for this new office huh?... Well, indeed this is not the place i've been looking forward to.  But i think i have to learn to get myself comfortable with this place.  Coz i don't want to suffer each and every single work day i have there.

At the moment, It's hard not to be bitter, not to have grudges.  But i don't want to spend my work days ahead with bitterness and grudges.  My soul deserves good things, and i believe i am a lot stronger than this uncomfortable situation.  Each day in the new office, my mind is overwhelmed by so many things.  I don't feel like talking to anybody.  I think silence is all i need.  It gives me peace.