It happened, again

You asked me for my opinion. You called me to spill out your feelings and worries.
I listened to you. I gave you my opinion.
What I said might not be the things you wished to hear.
BUT, I told you things I had to say.
Yes, unfortunately not the things you wanted me to say.

Now?
you tell me that I didn't let you be yourself.
you tell me that what I said made you keep defending yourself.
You tell me that all my suggestions and my opinion were actually for MY OWN problem.

wait a minute....
I get confused...
so, now you tell me i'm the one who's having problem?

alright...
ok...
fine...
*speechless*

May our conviction lead us back together

Many years ago, I had a friend, a best friend. She was once my roommate as well as my classmate. We were also involved in the same organization. We shared many things together. We were friends, even sisters for almost ten years. We sometimes had arguments because of our different characters. Often we resolved quickly, sometimes not. But, no matter how hard the arguments were, we always managed to stay together, to keep our friendship. Sometimes i wondered what really made us stay friends. I got the answer... it was our conviction.

Until one day... one particular matter. It was about me...my life. Each time we came into this matter, we would get into different angles. Once...twice...I don't remember how many times we got into that matter and we would argue, until I decided "Enough is enough..."

Since then on, I haven't called her, nor visited her. I was so upset that i deleted her number from my cell-phone. She never called me either...let alone visited me.

Time passes by...now, it's been almost eight years (not really sure) since the last time i called her. I don't know where she lives now...the last time i knew she moved to another town.

Lately... and now... I remember her and our friendship long-long time ago...including what made us separated. One side of me says, she did that because she wanted to see me stop suffering, the other side of me says, she just didn't understand me. She used to be a person who could really convince me in times when i got confused of what i had to do or decide. She also often reminded me to stay 'on track'.

After many years passed...I have gone through times when i wasn't sure about things. But I don't know why now i wish she were here... I really wish she were here, right now...

I hope things are fine with her...
and I pray to God...may our conviction unite us back as friends and sisters...

What my horoscope says...

Actually, i do not believe in horoscopes. Yet, i am sometimes intrigued to read them. Especially when i feel i don't have anything else to read (alasan banget bukan?)
Oh, well...let's not argue about whether what the horoscopes tell will indeed come true or not. That doesn't matter.... (reaaaalllyyy????...heheheeeee)

Year 2010 Overview

Aquarius often gets pegged as being a little too cerebral for its own good. But the truth is, that's where you do your best work. The next year is going to give you the opportunity to use those sharp mental powers to focus on what it is you really want out of life. Two eclipses fall in your Twelfth House, which will bring out your intuitive side, and give you a chance to see your life from a less-strictly-logical (yet no less valid) perspective. The additional information they give you about your life and your position in it will be your big chance to put things in order.

Saturn is also going to be bringing big changes as to your philosophical approach to life. What fundamental approaches to life have worked for you, and what haven't? You may have never stopped to ask that question, or known the benefits of finding the right answer to it. This year, those answers will come, and your life is likely to be a saner, better-adjusted place for it.

Of course, it's impossible to have a well-ordered world around you without having a few other people in it. The middle part of the year will see close friends and partners coming and going in your life, more so than you've seen in a long time. In part, this will be a reflection of the changes going on in your "higher mind." And again, the overall effect should be a positive one. It's your worldview, Aquarius -- make it the best you can!

Honestly, i don't really understand the meaning of some terms mentioned. But, don't bother. I got the message anyway... :)