bitter week

This week has been one of the hardest weeks for me
first, some of my colleagues were absent for the reason of domestic problems. Work load has never gone lighter each day. I wonder whether I am prone to job assignment and responsibilities. I have a magnet inside me that makes those assignments and responsibilities keep coming to me instead of to my colleagues. I wonder if I set too high standard so that i get irritated when people around me working casually.

second, my most reliable partner is assigned out of town this week. Actually, this is not the first time that i have to work without her, but i don't know why it feels harder this time. I think despite of all the differences between me and her in handling work, she is the one i can rely on most compare to the others. Her absence makes situation harder for me.

third, I was irritated by an act of selfishness by someone at the office. I felt like slapping someone's face that day. It really drained the emotional bank account in me.

fourth, it turned out that letting go grudge and feeling of offense I have been having lately is completely a hard thing to do. Maybe it won't be that hard if i don't have to see her everyday. I don't remember the last time I feel like saying 'I wish you disappeared' to a person. It did occur two days ago.

fifth, the plan to have another fun friday with my old buddies was canceled since one of them was sick. I miss them a lot.

Today (and for tomorrow) I really wish for a peaceful weekend. I hope I can just delete all bitterness, disappoinments, and anger I had during last weekdays by enjoying myself and believing that i do have a full control of my life, personally and professionally.