I will be just fine

It's been so many years i haven't been in a very uncomfortable situation when I felt so confused with so many unaswered questions in my head. So uncomfortable that what I could do was only crying and crying. I didn't even know exactly what serious matter I was worried or confused about. Hormonal effect? well...maybe...indeed, I was having my period...That was what my logic said. However, my heart said something was not going right...I knew it...I just knew.

Honestly, i don't believe in sixth sense, meaning of dream, whatsoever...though I do believe in my intuition. I was tortured by all the questions in my head. I needed answers but I just couldn't get them. I was kind of being led to situation once I went through in the past where I almost lost control of my life. I sobbed... I didn't want to go back to that situation anymore...never...

Thank God...it didn't last long. I eventually got the answers. Though the answers actually confirmed my hunch, I still do not want to believe in what people call as sixth sense. Though I know now that chemistry exists and my intuition is right.

Since then, thisngs are not the same anymore. Apparently, the reality is not on my favor. Well...i get used to it.
This is the first weekend since change took place. It's not enjoyable...not at all...but i need to tell myself, I will be just fine....just fine...